Sunday, 31 July 2011

The pursuit of Happiness

The fight for spiritual contentment is one we all face. As I reach my early twenties, I am becoming aware that many of us are not happy. Though I find myself to be quite content, I look around and I see a lot of angry people. The quote I hear only too often is “I am not getting paid enough.” Of course, you aren’t and most top executives, CEO’s and clerical assistants and everyone besides believes that too. If you really want to be content, you have to stop comparing yourself to everyone else. Their lives aren’t any better than yours, they are just different. The grass will always be greener on the other side. So the best thing you can do is to stop peering over the hedge because it will only make you miserable. Everyone including celebrities have problems, I mean look at Amy Winehouse. Now that I have mentioned it, my hope is that you will become acutely aware of envy as the week goes by you begin to realise we live to our means. Whatever you have, you will spend, so stop looking on in envy at what everyone else has got and get back to living! You are in this moment only. In this time, you exist and only this time. Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, but today is a gift that is why we call it the present. What do you need to do other than breathe to survive for another twenty seconds? Contentment can not be achieved outwardly through material gain and yes many have tried. It is about accepting what you have as being enough, whether you are in a one million pound house or a bed sit.  


₁1902 book, "Sun Dials and Roses of Yesterday: Garden Delights..." by Alice Morse Earle.

Monday, 18 July 2011

Growth Through Getting It Wrong

Life  in case you haven’t noticed will sometimes kick you when your down. I think due to the week I have had it would be an appropriate time to discuss failure. It has been a significant week, in terms of failures. The young people had their tennis tournaments this week. The results were mixed, some lost. I had to lead yet another football session. It did not go well, I lost my temper. Whenever I fail at something I have a habit of beating myself up for about a week. This is bad because there is a danger I will miss the point. With every defeat and failure, there are lessons to be learned. I recall what was said to Bruce in Batman Begins after he came close to dying: “Why do we fall Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up again.” You see we only ever truly fail at something when we stop trying. Its OK to make mistakes, it's not OK to give up because you are making mistakes. And it's not OK to be childish because your mistakes cost you.

I did a lot wrong when leading that session. I did no stay calm. I was too proud to get another worker. The list to me seemed endless. However, what I did notice was that only a handful of young people caused the problems. The young people who I had spent time with did not get involved. They stayed back, they were obedient. All most young people want is your attention, you give them that and you get their respect. That is the main thing I learned from that session.

Now for the second lesson. When you make mistakes, it is easy to blame someone else. The truth is the blame normally falls on the man who points the finger. It is easy to blame someone else. The world is wrong, and I am right. However, if you don’t look inwards for your solutions then you will never grow as a person. So go out, make mistakes and learn and eventually your mistakes will build to your successes. And remember 'many of lives failures are people who did not realise how close they were to success when they gave up' - Thomas Alva Edison (February 11, 1847 – October 18, 1931).

Tuesday, 5 July 2011

My future love

My future love I wonder where you are.
Lounging on the lawn or driving your car.
I long to meet you, to touch your face.
To have your kids and build our place.

I wonder if we met before, in a far away land or a distant shore...

My future love did I see you in my sleep?
I fell in our love, for it was so deep.
As I woke your face was carried away.
Leaving me alone for another day.

My future love come along soon, for life is short but too long without you.

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Is something getting the best of you?

This is not an article about self exploration per se. More about reaching one's potential. I had a revelation today as I was playing tennis. Tennis has been a bed rock in my life since my childhood but now I am starting to get serious, at least my attitude is. What I have found with a sport like tennis is that unless I am absolutely pushing then there is a real possibility that I will get worse. Attitude proceeds ability. I may have got marginally better in the last year but I am still not happy. Why? Because whilst I have improved my lack lustre attitude means I am not improving nearly as quickly as I would like. So what changed? I began questioning every shot. How can I improve on that? And for the first time the majority of my forehands went in, with force, power and control. I was fighting myself to get better. I hope this fight lasts, striving to be continually better is something that could transform every aspect of my life, not just my tennis game.  And why bother? Because as two of our fish found out this morning (we found them dead), life is not nearly as long as it first appears. In fact it is over in a flash.  Don't you want to make your mark before your time is done? 


Wednesday, 22 June 2011

No one calls

I wake to another dreary day, I know already it will be the same.
I walk downstairs and hunt all day for a job that pays a decent wage.
I send out cvs and applications, to every office in this whole damned nation
But alas, no one calls.

I search the papers I ring up Reed, but they tell me there is no job  for me.
So I raid my penny jar in the hope of affording  even a chocolate bar.
I call in favours from old friends
But alas, another dead end.  

Why, oh why did I do that degree? I say hating myself so violently.
The writing is how I find my release, the only way I get some peace.


by Joseph  A. K. Turner

Wednesday, 15 June 2011

A brush with the past


It was dark, as it often was as Jack made his way back up the road. The night was bitterly cold and the wind was howling forcing Jack to button his jacket even more tightly than usual. Jack hated walking back this way. The path that led up to his home was poorly lit with a solitary street light which seemed to do little more than mock him. Showing him what light looked like without giving off enough of it to actually make any difference. Up ahead in the fog he was sure he could see a couple. The wife had fallen over and the husband was leaning over trying to pick her up.  Jack could barely see them through the fog and even as he drew near their faces remained pale. The smell of alcohol was potent, they were red wine drinkers Jack recognised the smell from one of his ex’s. Being kindly Jack offered some assistance."No thank you, me and my wife are fine," said the man however he soon however felt a nudge in his rib cage from his wife. 
“Let the boy help us,” she said in a frosty voice that sent shivers down Jack’s spine. “Actually we could use some help if that is alright,” said the lady smiling insincerely. Jack went over and grabbed the lady by the arm and with the help of the man managed to hoist her up to her feet.
“I am so sorry, I think I have had too much to drink,” said the lady apologetically. 
“That’s ok, happens to everyone,” smiled Jack.  His eyes met the ladies for a moment.
“You would not believe I was a grandmother would you?”
“You flaming would!” said the husband laughing brashly. He looked at his wife who seemed far from impressed. “So where do you live mate?” asked the husband quickly changing the subject.
“Straight up the hill.”
“Oh so do we,” replied the man.
“Yeah I live above Dianne.”
The man looked at Jack strangely.
“Who’s Dianne?”
“Dianne has lived in seventeen chesterfield gardens for five years. You guys must not mix much.”  
“No we keep ourselves to ourselves really,” conceded the husband.
“I think I know who she is,” said his wife.   
“What are your names by the way?”
“I am Michael and this is Jean, we have not seen you round here before are you new?” asked Michael whilst trying to hold up his drunk wife.
“Yeah I only moved in last month.”
“Woops,” said Jean as her sandals slipped off.
“Why in God’s name did you wear sandals! Look at the state of them; you can leave them outside tonight.” Michael paused for a moment before wrapping his arm under Jean to ensure she did not slip again. “Oh for Christ's sake why do you always have to get so drunk!?” said the husband. At this moment an awkward silence settled over the trio making the journey up the hill even more agonising. 
 Jack was thankful they were nearing the top of the hill, he was getting sick of carrying Jean.  As they arrived at the top of the hill by St Ursula’s school, the wife looked at Jack.
“Where do you live then?” asked Jack in a desperate attempt to break the silence. 
“Well we actually live round the front but we find it easier to cut through the middle of the square.”
“Oh right well I guess this is where we part ways then,” smiled Jack.
“Thank you so much for your help you have been a darling,” said the women kissing him on the cheek suggestively.

                The final approach to the house was the darkest part of the journey by far. Jack could see less than a metre in front of him. He fumbled for the stairs that led onto his patio and into his house. As he stepped on the porch he slipped on a pair of sandals that seemed to emerge from the fog. He managed to regain his balance. The shoes were only too familiar, the same ones the lady had been wearing but why had she left them in front of his door. As Jack opened the door and walked up the stairs, he heard someone behind him.
“You’re late!” said his wife “Where have you been? I was worried sick. I actually went out looking for you!” said his wife unbuttoning her coat. 
“Sorry darling, I was helping carry a drunken person up the hill, one of our new neighbours.”
“I hope you did not do it by yourself,” said Jack’s wife softly.
“No her husband was with her.”
“What husband? You know this whole place is full of single parents.”
“Yeah I know and what is even weirder is that she left her shoes outside our front door.”
“Jack what are you talking about?”
“I came in behind you there are no shoes by the front door.”
“But I just tripped over them,” said Jack walking back down the stairs and peering out the door.
“You did not move them did you?” said Jack looking out the front door at the patio.
“What kind of stupid question is that!” said his wife.
“I must be going mad.... I am sure I recognised their names though.”
“What were they?”
“Jean and Michael,” said Jack.
“Yeah so do I and I remember where from, look at this. It's last week’s post,” said his wife holding up two of the letters.
“This one is for Jean and this one is for Michael.”
"Weird. I wonder what they're doing back here..." said Jack taking off his jacket. 

 Jack caught up with Dianne their neighbour the next day as she was pruning flowers in her flower bed.  “Dianne, you know before we moved in....”
“Yes I remember the whole estate was a lot quieter,” said Dianne brashly.
“Yes but... that is not what I am asking about. How long ago did the past owners leave?”
"What they didn't leave? they died," said Dianne pulling out a weed. "He died before I came to the estate; she died about a month before you moved in, drunk herself to death poor thing.” 
 Jack gulped deeply. He wished he never asked.

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